Corp-speak

Be real. No more witty catchphrases, showering of praises and attention or continual pats on the back. Being in a corporate environment often makes me feel like a misshapen blob trying to into a neat mold. I wonder what it would feel like to have the corporate tones resonate (it must feel good) but then I think I am OK with not being swayed, not being neat, even though it creates a chasm.

Smile

It takes awhile for my smile to warm up. It surprises me when people can smile naturally at whim. When the smile doesn't well up within me, it doesn't reflect on the physical self. When I look at pictures, I like to see the genuine ones that show in my whole face. It probably meant that that I felt happy, silly--both good things.

Smile.

I wish

It would be nice to feel beautiful all of the time, bursting with this from within. But alas, I guess it is like the impossible wish to be happy all of the time. And without the opposing feelings, you have no way to compare or to appreciate feeling good. Still, it would be nice.

Alignment

Life seems to include phases of "misalignment" or "disalignment" with the self's core. We are continually in flux with our desires, plans, experiences, obsessions, feelings, other forces, etc. Through the search of something "else" besides what is, we become disengaged/detached from the very energy of life. That's not to say that we must accept the status quo and not strive for more, but we need to keep a complete perspective. Must remember to experience life with the wonder and passion that it deserves.