I'm not sure why being quiet is considered a negative, I guess mostly from people who aren't considered quiet, which is probably most people. Sometimes you just don't know what to say, don't need to say anything, don't want to say anything or truly just have nothing to say. It's been a little bit hard to really connect with people and truly be present in many conversations lately. I'm hoping to regain that part of me...to be less inhibited and really not care about what other people think or how I'll be perceived. I think there is a hurt that is healing as well, which makes openness a frightening thing. But to be trusting again feels good, feels right.
Sometimes (well not that often) you feel as if you can pull something out of the air and the conversation ebbs and flows and you feel an invisible line with another person. That whatever you say will be OK, it doesn't matter if you're eloquent or not, funny or not, deep enough.
Feeling apart
Seems like it's often expected in many situations that one ought to talk. And I know there are several reasons why someone might not. I don't think a people often realize this, and then they make these unfair assumptions about you.
ReplyDeleteTalking smooths over, hiding the chatter of your thoughts; it makes people focus on your words, and not on you: what your body will betray if you let it - the things you can't help but feel.
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